Wednesday, October 2, 2013



   Tonight I was privileged to experience a small taste of the real life horror story through which so many of my DC area friends lived. In a small, private screening of the documentary Blue Caprice, I found myself surrounded by victims of PTSD. People with once normal lives who experienced twenty-three days of sheer terror as thirteen people were randomly murdered. These people surrounded me in the audience; these people who were forced to see the fragility and uncertainty of life, helpless to hide, and encouraged by leadership to “continue living their lives as normal” throughout the terror.
   As the movie began to unfold, the odd relationship between two individuals going through difficulties in their lives tugged at the audience’s emotions. Interestingly enough, the director left out any dates, names, or specifics in reference to the events-those events with which this particular audience was grossly familiar with. Without any identifying information, the viewer was encouraged to feel compassion towards these two people. After a solid hour of introduction the movie cruised through the preparations made by the “stars” of the documentary, then sped through the murders that wreaked havoc on so many innocent people and stole the loved ones from ten unrelated families across the D.C. metropolitan area. The documentary ended abruptly with an arrest, an abrupt interview, and the image of a young man forced to spend the duration of his days in an orange jumpsuit.
   While the director performed incredibly from an artistic standpoint and was able to evoke two strong and opposing emotions of sympathy and range from a majority of the audience, he forced something to my attention that I was only subconsciously aware of.    Our society does not want to admit we need God. In denying that we need a God, we are forced to find a reason for evil outside of His clear-cut explanation of sin. We need the reasoning to provide closure when traumatic events happen so that we can attempt to cope or handle them on our own. While we flounder in the darkness searching for a reason, we can justify anything we or someone else does based on race, gender, childhood trauma, social status, deficiency of neurotransmitters, or any number of fabricated excuses. While circumstances certainly can certainly improve or deter our ability to make positive choices in life, each individual person has their battles. Each person has mountains to climb. Some are easier to see than others. Some are physical such as poverty or disease. Some are emotional such as depression or anxiety. The common ground we share as humans is this world. We each have free will and we each live in a world riddled by sin. While on this earth, we will be uncomfortable and we will struggle. It is called “earth” and not “heaven” for a reason. The point is to realize we are only responsible for our reactions to struggle.
   While this documentary was very well done, it encouraged a sympathy to sick, depraved humans who murdered the innocent to satisfy the need for vengeance on life’s hardships. I believe it is important to understand the beliefs of others and where they are coming from. I believe it is important to find closure to traumatic events. What I do not believe is that we try to explain away sin, thus lessening the depraved reality of our souls. Reality is that we are all capable of the sick acts of terror performed by these two individuals. One individual was seventeen years old-not even a legal adult.
   Something I constantly must remind myself when confronted with a horrific act is that but for the grace of God that could be me. We are not bigger or more human than those who murder, rape, or steal. We must swallow the fact that we are human and equals. This world can be wonderful but it can also be brutal and without the hope of a Savior, we can all be driven to the worst acts of terror.
   I do not mean to dissuade from this film-it is very well done and while not completely accurate, it is certainly thought provoking. I encourage viewers to go in with an open mind, but to realize the importance of a firm foundation based on something eternal-not something temporal. This world is only getting older, but there are things we can count on including the love of an eternal God. As for evil, it will always be in this life. Instead of trying to cope by explaining it, I encourage you to cope through forgiveness. You are freed from the burden of evil with forgiveness and although it is not an easy thing to do, with God’s help anything is possible. I believe in the power of the mind God has given us but like our body we must feed it well if it is to be healthy.

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