“When will God decide He’s had enough of me??? As I trust what He has said, I will not live to see that day. Thank goodness His patience is unfathomable and His love unmeasurable!”
Much time has passed since I last “published” a post. God has still been at work in my heart but I have allowed myself to become lazy when it comes sharing the blessings and challenges and lessons He has been teaching me.
I have continued my pursuit of Him and am learning to appreciate His presence and a pursuit of a greater goal than those that our ever-changing culture encourages us to pursue. God continues to humble me and teach me that I am not Him, neither am I even someone He needs to get His will accomplished. I am simply offered the opportunity to participate and enjoy the fulfilled life that is only a result of being “in sync” with His design.
As a young (ish) single female, of course the pressure is on to find a “soulmate” or the one person I am supposed to spend my life with. The pressure is everywhere and the loneliness of not having another human to share each step of life with and to be your “person” can be crippling if allowed.
My prior approaches to these pressures have been to either ignore it and secretly hope for opportunities to fall in my lap, or to “put myself out there” in an effort to find “the one”. As I have done this for many years not, I will share my perspective on both. Neither have worked for me. Neither approach has given me peace and both have been a distraction. What is my new solution?
As 2018 begins, I am praying for God to use me to the fullest extent in ways that I could never even imagine. I am praying that God gives me the strength and courage to live as a single person with the same peace that everything around me says can only be found when you find the person you are meant to spend your life with. I am also praying that God will change my perspective to understand that He can use me if I am willing. Period. I don’t need to have any ducks in a row and I don’t need to have a certain level of education. He can use me if I am willing to be used and accepting of whatever that means.
“I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber.
The Lord will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life.”